WOW!

My goodness, it has been FOREVER!!!... since I last posted. Let's see, I work at Forever 21 now. I love my job. Tristan is almost 9 months old :). And he is currently six hours away from me.

:( he is visiting his grandparents for about 2 weeks. I got a Nikon camera for Christmas!! And I am oh so happy about that! Our first Christmas was perfect actually. We all had a blast and laughed. The lights were beautiful too.

I am really missing my baby munchkin right now. My house is so quiet without him being around. My days are slower and I thought sleeping in would help, but no. It is barely 6:25pm. this sucks. I am never doing this again.

Video-Gaming TIME!!!!

My goodness, it has been a while. Hello, again. My life has been a roller coster since the last post. Until just recently, I had a chance (week-long chance) to get my gaming on.

I've always wanted to be a sniper and many other marvelous things, and Modern Warfare 2 and Army of Two make that possible for me.

(I'm Salem, and I finally killed more than him!)

I do not know why, but the thrill of shooting the enemies gives me a sense of high...I sound horrible right now.

I am so excited for the next Call of Duty to come out in November!!!! I am so excited. I was not too happy with the Call of Duty 4 because it was a short game to play.

I probably sound like I have no life and just stare at the TV screen all day. That is a lie. I do have a life and I spend it most with my son. I just happen to have time on my hands to spare. :)

Black Ops, I'm purchasing you, baby!!!

What Is on My Mind...

WOW! I have been crazy busy for the past month. So, let me inform you about it. I am making great pay at the dental office, my son is 5months old, my little nephew is sick, and Pat has to go to another trial.
Today is my "day off." Tristan had to go to the ER last night because he threw up so much that his vomit and mucous were coming out of his nose. He really scared me! :( And we found out that he has eczema, too. :( Great, what else can go wrong?!

Well, right now I am watchin What Not to Wear. Early, I was watching Say Yes to the Dress. I have no idea why I was watching that. I do not even like that show. The women on there are too insane. They are so bratty and just want, want, want! I mean it is nice to buy a fancy, somewhat expensive dress if you can afford it and are not so picky. But the women I am talking about are those who are so stubborn about every little thing. Sometimes, I would love to shake these wealthy, and blessed people and say,"Be happy that you can afford the whole store! Most of us struggle to pay for bills and are on a tight budget!"



I just do not get them. MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, is the only thing on their minds. Selfishness.
OH! Also, My Super Sweet Sixteen is televising to the young that it is ok to be this horrible child ever and demand everything you want. It is sending a message out saying that disrespecting anyone who says 'NO' is the right thing and the only thing to do. What is going on in America? what happened to respect and dignity and pride? Did I miss a memo telling everyone to be a super meanie forever?!
Whatever happened to MTV just airing MUSIC VIDEOS?
And when did nudity in most movies become a "normal and casual" thing to see everywhere?
I guess our bodies are no longer sacred but a public form of enjoyment only suitable for adults?
I really wish I could flip a coin into my toilet bowl and "teleport" myself to the 90's.
Yes, I am old school. And I am happy about it.

Yesterday Was Amazing, Today Was a Disaster!

So, I wake up to a drunk "boyfriend," the father of my son.
Last night he told me that he was going to work in Tucson for a day and that he will be back later tonight. He packed last night after an amazing tme with just us three-tristan, him, and I.
I got a promotion from work and spent the entire day with the little family. We shopped, ate chinese food at home. We has a great time until today.
Well, last night Pat did not go to work. Instead, he went to drink with his cousin Ryan and ended up hurting his arm causing it to bleed.
So, basically domestic violence is never a laughing matter. I have been in an abuse relationship for a long time now. And that relationship was mainly off and on.
I was cussed at, pushed over a couch falling facedown, being kicked while on the ground and choked with a phone while trying to dial 9-1-1. Pat is in jail now and is being charged with domestic assault. I hope I don't get to see him again.The first few times of being vulnerable and abused were bad but I was still able to handle the situation. But now since I have my four-month-old son Tristan, I knew that the only thing, the safest thing to do was contact the police. Luckily, they did not need to use deadly force. But he did leave some bruises on me...physically and emotionally.
I'm comfortable with tell you about this because 1) Odds are, that we don't know eachother and 2) we most likely will never meet.
So, if you ever need to talk, I'm here and listening.

busy busy busy

I'm sorry for not posting anything for the past few weeks. I have been super busy with my internship. I work about 9-11 hrs a day. It's exhausting but I love what I do. :)
And my boss is pretty handsome-looking. So, can't complain, hahahahahha.

Birthday!!!

Wow, I'm officially a non-teen! Yes! 20 Years young! The day started out perfect: waking up to pee on my legs and spit-up in my hair and a smile I will never forget. Thank you Tristan for that. I hardly got some sleep, so after I got out of work, I fell asleep with Tristan. I am still tired.
The most precious gift that I received was on April 6, 2010. Tristan was my early birthday present.
Oh, and 20 years ago today, my mom was in the same situation as me; a young parent (just about 20 yrs) with little me! hahaha
Right now, Tristan is talking. I'm wondering if he is singing 'happy birthday, mom.' Wouldn't that be sweet!

So I just got done eating a sandwich from paradise bakery, delicious!

P.S.
The "boyfriend" forgot my b-day :(.

darn...!

My lease ends next month. I hate but love apartment hunting. It is so time-consuming. I am going to miss this apartment of mine. My very first apartment. There are so many memories here. Monotony and hullabaloo still lingere around. I'm surprised because I thought I packed those right next to my hair-dryer.

( my map of maps on how things are going to process...can you see my hair-dryer :) )

externshippy

My goodness, I love being on my externship. The assistants, dentist, hygienists are all amazing people. I'm the youngest there and not complaining. :) I would love to get hired, praying that I will...hopefully.

SCRUB scrubs :D

Yesterday, I bought myself some neat-o scrubs for my externship tomorrow..I'm very apprenhensive. I hope I dont faint or blank. :( if all goes well, I may just dance in my patio, while rapping to ice ice baby. hahaha

:P

BUTT what?

today i was scanning through my friends list on myspace so i can delete people. i was fascinated on how many "friends" i have, because in the real world, i dont have that many. anyway, when i was busy deleting away, i came across one particular person. i dont know why i was so interested in the lady, but i was (im not attracted to women, just so you know). so i clicked on her profile button then on to her pictures.
what came next made me laugh and wonder. this lady, well she seems more of a young lady; possibly in here early 20's, had about 2 pics of her face and about 7 pics of her butt. and the captions under those "mooning" pictures read, and i quote,"i dont like my butt," and "i think my butt is ugly."
so im thinking, why would you say that about yourself and post up more pics of your badonkadonk than your face? hmm...she must love her butt.
my opinion: her behind was not that pleasing to my eyes. but you can decide for yourself; i would post up her link but that is mean and unethical of me. so your loss, hahaha

:)